Are you happy?
Source: Retrogodesses Vintage kids |
When you’re having a conversation
with your friends, family, relatives, or new acquaintances, are you happy?
Is your mind present or half of
it is already thinking about tomorrow?
I remember one meaningful conversation
I had with one of my closest friends back in college. I told him I would be working
very hard because I want a fortune. I want a car. I want a big house. Everything
materialistic under the sun. He
laughed at me and said it can’t be done at once. There has to be a process, and
it takes time. I was quite immature so I got annoyed at him while he explained that he was just being practical in life. I understood him even then. But in my futuristic point of view, he was a
dream-crusher.
Although a writer and a very keen
reader of historical fiction, I am, in fact, a futuristic person. Join me in a conversation and talk about your
plans or goals in life, you would find me more enthusiastic than ever. I love
talking about how I see myself in the future
no matter how impossible it may seem. I love thinking that everything that’s
happening to me at the moment is a stepping stone to the glorious future that awaits me. I love planning
ahead so when I work on something, it has to be close to perfection because my future lies on it.
But I hate worrying about the future.
Whenever I am too happy or
laughing too much in a supposed to be leisure time, half of my thoughts are
already into sadness that may come later on. There would always be a moment of
silence in my mind whispering, ‘hey, don’t
be so happy. It won’t last. It won’t last.’
This isn’t healthy for a
spiritually growing Christian. Because when you worry too much, you doubt a
faithful God!
“And do not set your heart on
what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it.
For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows
that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you
as well.
‘Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to
give you the kingdom.’”
(Luke 12:28-32)
I have a Father who is in heaven—who
holds everything and makes an empty basket full and overflowing!
It’s not wrong to dream big, aim
for excellence, or plan more than what you need. Such character is actually
good because it means you are living for a purpose—and so you cannot settle for
less. The problem is when you don’t even know how to live in the moment anymore
because your future self has eaten
you up.
What I normally do when I look at
things I want in the future is utter
brief prayers in my mind.
Every time I get to see a car
display, I would slow down walking, stare at it, and tell my God, ‘Lord, bless me with a car. In your perfect
time.’
Every time I find myself
overwhelmed with my schedule in the next few days, I would again pray, ‘Lord, just let me find joy in what’s going
to happen today.’
Every time I worry that today’s
moments would end too soon, I would say briefly, ‘Lord, just let me cherish the moment so I can smile or laugh about
them when I’m feeling down.’
And the list of prayers goes on. It’s
not everyday that you’re going to encounter or see the same persons, the same
events; so make it a habit to condition your mind into having worry-free thoughts.
Live in the moment.